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1/01/14 3:11 am

Deviation Actions

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I'm fine.

I'm

Fucking fine alright.
Infinitely angry at myself.
Nowhere to go with my fucking feelings
Except down.

I'm okay.

I'm

Over trying to get better.
Kicked and fucked over
And no progress to show for trying to recover.
Yeah, I'm perfectly okay.

I'm alright.

I'm

Actually barely breathing.
Living day by day pretending that
Recovering is going well. Drifting
In and out of consciousness.
Going crazy to get rid of feelings.
Heaviness in my chest and on
The scale weigh me down, alright?

I'm not who I used to be.

I'm

Not the person I wanna be either. She's the one
Who everyone remembers but me.
"I don't know, she
Used to smile a lot."
To be completely fair, I was always dying inside. Now it just seems to
Be more obvious.

But that's okay, I guess.

But

That's not how I want it to be. I can't change it and just be
Okay. I can't make myself into the person
I was before no matter how hard I sit here and try.
Guess I'm kinda stuck here.
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DeepDark00-0's avatar
And yet, this in itself is, I think, a positive action.
Even, dare I say, a step in the right direction.

Look at that, you just moved a little ^_^