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what are you willing to sacrifice to stay awake today?

go ahead, have a snack.
i'll see you in the bathroom and we'll cut it out of you.

i dare you, kid. make your fucking move. piece of shit.

go ahead, indulge.
your birthday dinner doesn't taste as good coming up, does it?

keep fucking up. please. i like to watch you squirm after you've realized you've destroyed the city of bones you commissioned.

justify it one more time.
go ahead. make your move.

i'll be your salvation when you stop being so lazy. control yourself.

bite the hand that feeds.
that's right, baby, rip 'em to shreds, but don't swallow.

you've worked long and hard, that's for sure. somehow, you're still unworthy. work harder.

does 500 scare you? good.
don't even think about it.

Why do these scars threaten you?
I hurt myself.
Never anyone else.

What is wrong with a t-shirt?
It took me years to gain the confidence
In my appearance to walk outside and show complete healing.

That's what my scars are now.
I haven't cut myself open, I haven't tried to bleed myself dry.
I am healing, just like the deeper wounds.

How am I glamorizing self harm by not being ashamed of my past any more?
In what way is my growing past a lack of confidence in my ability to outshine pink eyesores
Promoting that other people should do it? These are cautionary tales, not life models.

Each individual line is not an expression on canvas, I will be the first to tell.
Every single cell in these marks are gruesome, agonizing fights against myself. I made the mistake to become my own worst enemy.
There is nothing beautiful or romantic about a war fought in your own body.

There is also nothing wrong with having fought. You don't have a choice. Every scarred body has been drafted.
I am not for your viewing pleasure or the topic of your controversy. I am not for ridicule or romanticization. Please leave my body's history out of your mind unless I'm paying you with my health insurance.
These scars are losses that turned into an overall victory, because I still stand today.

These scars are with me forever, they are reminders that things may escalate out of control, but I am strong enough to survive any conditions.
These scars are what have shown me both my strength and weakness, and I am not ashamed.
I will defend these ugly pink lumps until you understand they are none of your concern, because I will never be made to feel like less of a person for my history.
Mom what did I tell you about the monster in my room?
It hung out by the mirror and looked me dead in the eyes every time I passed by.

It laughed at the way I dressed and the fat on my stomach,
It tells me daily I'm better off waiting to catch my ride to hell on the train tracks across the street.

Mom why did you try and convince me that it didn't exist?
Because surely, surely nothing else could even be as real as this.

Mom, I've seen a lot and heard a lot.
Physically impossible orations and apparitions that should have never been there.

I get the clozapine is to make me less crazy, mom, I'm sorry.
But I think you don't understand.

The reality of it all is, I could take every last pill in that bottle.
I could get a refill or three.

Maybe I should stop speaking in metaphor because it was like the disorganized speech that was practically in tongues,
But mom every time I look in the mirror, I see the most horrific monster...

And no amount of sanity will make me go away.


june ✿
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I suffer from a few chronic mental illnesses and I am very sensitive to triggers. Please be wary of talking to me about subjects like specific weights, BMIs, caloric intakes, exercise patters, purging, restricting, and things of that nature. I would also appreciate refraining from mentioning self harm in graphic detail. Thank you.

I fall off the face of the planet sometimes and don't update shit for like three years at a time on accident so I'm sorry I just do other things and get caught up with things and I'm a dangass I know and I apologize but falling off the planet doesn't mean I hate you you're a little ball of fuzzy joy and if there was a plush of you I'd so buy it and squeeze it's cheeks.

Feel free to thank if you want you're awesome and mannerly if you say thank you for stuff. I'm not about to demand llamas instead that's assy.


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I'm bored as dicks and found a questionairre on someone else's dA so I was like "better put off finishing your character profiles for as long as humanly possible" so now you know my motives in this.

Nearly 17.


Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc)
Grunge fuckwit.

How long have you been cutting?
Over a year. Used to do unintentional self harm? Like, I would absentmindedly scratch my skin open when I got anxious.

Favourite tool?
I break shaving razors/take them apart.

Where (place) do you cut (school, home, etc.)?

Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?
I generally don't anymore but when I cut frequently in visible places (lower arms) I did.

Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?
Not frequently.

Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?
Arms, upper thighs.

What’s your favourite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?
I tell little kids I've got a mean cat and anyone else that asks gets a blunt "fuck you, it's no concern of yours."

Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?
Twice. It wasn't ALL I got hospitalized for, but it's what sealed the deal in me going.

When was the last time you cut?
September 17th, 2014.

Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?
Easily over 125 visible ones.

Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd?
Depression, no BPD. I've had depression forever, I attribute the cutting to the development of my ED.

Who knows you cut?
Eveyone that meets me and knows that these scars aren't just birthmarks or some other odd thing.

Have you ever been caught cutting?

Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel?

Did you have a good childhood?

Why do you cut?
Punishment. Distraction. Relief. I fucking hate myself and want to see me hurt.

Have you ever talked to a therapist or counsellor?

Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)?
Not particularly. I

Do you like cutting?
Pretty much.

How many times have you tried to commit suicide?

What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury?
Get a hobby like writing or singing. This is 100% preventable, so don't fucking dip your toes in the water to even see what it feels like. Don't do it.

Do you like watching movies with self-injury?
Those exist??

Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury?

Do you sometimes envy other people (non-self-injurers)

Have you ever taken any pictures of your cuts/scars?
Yeah. I don't think self injury is beautiful or anything. I have a fear of forgetting things so I "document" what the really bad cuts have looked like.

Do you want to die?

Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury?

What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc.?
I don't listen to anything. I don't want to associate music with self harm in the future.

Have you ever needed stitches from cutting?
There have been two times I should have received stitches but no one knew I needed them so I didn't get them.

Do you dream about cutting?
I don't do a lot of dreaming.

What do you use to bandage your cuts?
Gauze, sometimes tissue and tape.
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thanks awfully for watching!
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Thank you! This will be a wonderful mutual watch!
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